Purpose

Shout out to JCLU for the picture!!!

The reoccurring them in peoples life is What is my purpose? When I came across that shirt  at JCLUforever.com (They sell some awesome stylish merchandise.) I know what it feels like to just sit there and wonder what am I doing with my life? Am I doing something wrong? I just wanted to be a walking billboard for little girls, teenagers and women. There's too many people running around thinking they have no puropse. Don't you know God created us all with a purpose? We have to put ourselves in the position to hear God and we have to listen. Sometimes we just forget to sit still and listen. God can do amazing through you. YES THROUGH YOU!!! No matter how many times you have fallen short, he will never forsake you. That being said, I'm not telling you to go out there and do whatever you want, knowing it's wrong. There are consequences. (Trust me, I never realized my foolish behavior in my early twenties would kick me in the butt when I got married.)

 

A Virgin, that which shall be born of thee shall be called the son of God. MARY

A Queen, you have come to a royal position for such times as this. ESTER

A Harlot, we will treat you faithfully when the Lord gives us the Land. RAHAB

A Slave, your descendents will be too numerous to count. HAGAR

A Purpose

Exodus 9:16

But I have raised you up for this very purpose that I might show you my powers and that my name might be proclaimed in all.

From the greatest of these to the least of them, God created these women for a purpose.

 

 

I just want you to ask God to guide you and find out your gifts and talents.He designed all of us with a purpose. Everyone. I think women need to hear it, because sometimes we don't value your ourselves, which can then make it hard for us to believe that God has a purpose for us.Been there. Sometimes self doubt has a way of creeping up in your spirit and staying for a while. We are all valued by God, not matter what mistakes we have made. I have to admit, I have to put myself in a better position to hear God more clearly. I have to read/study the bible more, pray more openly with those that I love and make sure I'm a living/breathing example. Ladies we have to make sure we value ourselves, because lack of self love will be an underlying theme to all this self doubt. Self doubt can lead to much more self destruction. Did I forget to mention it doesn't matter what age you are when you discover your purpose?

 

Your talent is God's gift to you, what you do with it is your gift to God.

 

What are your talents? Are you guilty of thinking God cannot use you?

What are you going to different, so that you can hear from God more clearly?

Public Speaking, my ARCH ENEMY, that I'm TRYING to GET OVER.

You can see how this could be a problem for me right?? I am a writer. I write all sorts of pieces. Poetry, short stories, (God willing a novel soon) etc. I have been encouraged to perform a couple of my own creations at an open mic. I guess watching others perform on Def Jam poetry, I feel like I haven't found my voice yet. Does that make sense?

Last year, I joined my husbands church, Blessed Ministries. It's a small church, with faithful members, a very intimate setting. In June of 2011, ( I believe) was when it started. Dad wanted us all to pick a month and a Sunday, and deliever the message. I just remember thinking in my head, this cannot be happening. I just joined, I'm not going. They gave me a chance to settle and since we were getting married in October that pushed my message to November. I remember feeling very uncomfortable and slightly upset.Why do I have to do this? I was terribly afraid of speaking in front of people (Shout out to Elighie Wilson at Prairie State for making out Comm 101 class like a family, so we weren't as nervous to give speeches.) Looking back. ever since I could remember, I remember feeling this way. I just never was the one for the spotlight, all attention on me. (Ugh, even now it still makes me slightly uneasy.) But I think what's even worse is standing up there and reading your own material, you know the things that you think and feel.

To me poetry is very personal,it's a part of you that you're putting out there. I realize I wasn't ready to feel so open and exposed. That's how I felt about my sermon/message. In true Kathy fashion I woke up 2.5 hours before church to figure out what exactly I was going to go up there and pray. I remember praying to God, and once that happened the writing just flowed out of me. (Yes, I literally just thought I was going to go up there and read everything I wrote down on the paper.) I finished and I was pleased with my product. I was ok until I got to church, ( I unfortunately have terrible armpit sweat when I'm super nervous, YAY ME). When I got up there there was a calming off my overshot nerves and I got up there and talked about forgiveness. Because at the time it was the reoccurring theme in my life. I talked about  letting go and really forgiving people who hurt you.

In the end it wasn't so bad. It was very liberating and I did not mind being so exposed. What I also realized is that you have to do it, to know what it feels like. You have to do it for yourself and others, because you never know who your words are going to touch and give encouragement to. Everyone has a message and I believe everyone takes something from your message. It doesn't have to be complex and you don't have to use big words that people need a dictionary to look up. All you can be is you and hope people can accept/love the authenticity that is you.

That being said, I challenge you all to do something that makes you slightly uncomfortable, but know that it's good for you.

Does anyone else know what this feels like??